Current mood:	tired
Current music:	Thunderstorms CD

Quick Update
Ok so here is what is going on in my life.

1 Fell down stairs, seriously fucked up my knee, probably need surgery, but I'm poor and my Girlfriend has a cane I use to hobble around, people tell me it makes me look more mature, I think it makes me look like a crippled fat fuck.

2 I am a LARP storyteller. I help run the University of Illinois Roleplaying Club Vampire LARP. It is not OWBN affiliated, no travelling PCs cannot visit and yes half the players in the game play wonk ass shit, they were all approved before I came on staff. I was brought on because no one even the other STs had a good grasp of the setting other than we are vampires and we hang out in a grouped called the camarilla. Already I have mostly favorable player reviews with the exception of some people who think I am cracking down to hard on PvPers. Some people are also complaining that I am taking to heavy of an advantage of their characters Flaws. Oh well. They wanted the world of darkness, I'm gonna give it to them. I am not using humor as I do in my tabletop games, my goal is to make charaters fear the night, so far it is working.

3. I run a single tabletop game that blend the New World of Darkness with the Resident Evil setting, players play normal people investigating rumors of wrong doings and atrocites caused by Umbrella Corp. My players say that I am one of the best, but cruelest STs they have ever played under... and I am no longer allowed to post details of grisly murder scenes on the message boards, supposedly I describe atrocities to well.

4. I am back to work despite my knee being fucked up. IT FUCKING HURTS!

5. Preparing for Halloween, unfortunately nothing says not scary like a monster with a bad limp and a hospital issue Cane.

6. My girlfriends new laptop will have to be sent back to gateway for a few weeks cause the damn ram in it is fucked up and it keeps memory dumping and corrupting the operating system. Best buy would be able to fix it but 512mb of the ram is permanently attached to the motherboard and unremovable. Fucking stupid as fucking hell.

7. hate to admit it, I like world of warcraft... no I don't pay for it I have a character on my GFs account.

8. Bummed I missed the final Hunter/FotF game but I worked and am not ready to deal with the old crowd yet. Though I think a lot of you would be suprised by how I am these days. I sometimes wonder if ths voice I hear coming from my mouth is really me. I keep feeling happy because I realize I am more like me fresh out of the military, before carbondale, before I started the spiral of mistakes that I caused. I no longer blame Lex, or bad luck. It was simply a series of bad desisions I could have stopped if I had not been blind to them or pawning my problems off on others. If anyoen whom I hurt reads this, I am more sorry than you can know, and I know that even should I repay every debt I owe to everyone who is owed it, I know some of you will never trust me again and that is ok.

Peace to all my friends. I love you all.
-Russ